Wednesday, September 30, 2009

one day at a time, stay positive, and focus on my goals

my husband was picking on me because I hadn't blogged in a while.

the last few weeks have been crazy- My gal bladder decided to really act up- so i did the first cleanse 2 weekends ago- and have been taking Gold coin grass - in 2 more weeks i will do another cleanse- and hopefully the gal stones will be gone(fingers crossed) I am truly hoping i can deal with this non- surgically. Natural is always better in my mind.

other than that things are going well- i have been around 95% clean with my eating. I am working on getting my portions of clean foods back under control.

the next competition i am supposed to do is November 14Th. if all goes well with my diet and gal bladder- i plan to compete in figure and couples bodybuilding.

i have hit a wonderful place for me- i am happy with who i am and what i look like- but have goals to look better- that is HUGE for me- being happy with me.
my body loves to jump about 15 pounds from comp weight almost overnight- then i stabilize. it is time to get that 15lbs off my body.

i am taking it one day at a time and not stressing about it- if my body says no- then i wait to compete until march. I am planning on getting qualified again so i can join one of my friends that is trying to get her pro card- i know i can do it- if i take it a day at a time, focus on my goals, and stay positive.

Monday, September 7, 2009

69 days

When i look at it in terms of days- it doesn't seem very long until i get to step on stage again.

this time i truly want to be my best -ever

i had an epiphany this morning- when i stepped on the scale and it had gone up for the 3rd day in a row- 1. i either need to go shopping for fat clothes
or 2. I need to hit it hard- 100% for the next 69 days and see what happens

i decided to go for #2- it gives me everything i want- #1 takes me to a dark, depressed place i hate being. ( kind of a DUH!!- but i needed to have that conversation with myself)

I woke up and used the quiet morning time to meditate and focus on my goals for the day and the next 69 days- them more time i spend living it in my head- the easier it will be for real

We started the day with a 3 hour intense hike- one of my favorite hikes and views- it was awesome- and i was with my favorite people

My nutrition has been spot on- and i feel great- no gal bladder attacks today!!

once we digest= we will head to the gym for an awesome workout- only 9 more times to kill each body part- i have to focus to be my best


Saturday, September 5, 2009


It has been a while since i have blogged- i think the main reason is i needed a break from the insanity. I have been training hard- (while trying to heal my pulled hamstring and micr0-fractures in my heels from my grueling training leading up to the last comp.) and i have been eating clean, most of the time. I have not been following the diet- just making good choices.

The last comp was a true learning expeirience. I went into it needing to lose too much weight in the last 6 weeks and had to kill myself to get there. I came in at 141 which was the lowest weight i have ever competed at- but i didnt look my best. the show before i was 149 and looked better- why? because i had fuller muscles and was tighter. i lost a lot of muscle in the last 2 weeks -= especially the last week. by the day after comp i looked full and muscular again.

my goal this time is to lean out slower- 1-2 lbs a week loss for the next 10 weeks= and have a shorter dry out - and be able to do it with out 3 hours a day of cardio. My body cant handle that much stress and i dont have the time that i do in the summer to dedicate myself to that much cardio. This time i have to be SMARTER - and stick to my foof 100% , 100% of the time for 10 weeks- i am very capable of doing it- especially when i put my mind to it- it is a personal challenge to me.

I have also discovered more foods that set off gal bladder attacks- which makes eating clean even more important. nuts, chocolate, fat and coffee put me in pain- so (other than coffee- cant give that one up yet) it is time to not eat those foods.

I am dedicated to doing this comp with my husband - it will be a beautiful culmination to our journey up to this point. We are competing in couples on November 14th= doing a tango/ bodybuilding routine. We are going to take first place!! period.

SMARTER, faster, leaner, harder , and more focused will get me there!!!